My tears speak

I suddenly have fallen short of words, when I have so much to say. It usually never happens like this, but this time it's effect is way too much to deal with. I want to say this and that but how do I? I feel so caught in the tangles of the web that they hold me back from shouting or crying, or as a matter of fact even uttering a word. I suddenly feel choked, and my voice is refusing to come out. I try hard, very hard to deal with such a happening by my efforts go in vain.

Suddenly the tears that refused to roll down, seem to speak to me. They say something that leaves an ever-lasting impression.

Let me not fall,

be gone like a fly,

roling down your eyes,

to your cheeks and then disappear into the thin air.

As precious as a pearl,

waste me not on that,

Keep me within the shell,

and use me some other time,

one time when my right need be.

What do I do after such an utterance? I'm confused because what they spoke is true. So lost I've never felt and I'm only hoping that this state will unfold into a later good direction.

I've always lived my life aimlessly, without forming any definite path, going with the bends and flows... so feeling this lost, shouldn't really affect me, but why is it then?!

Hurt beyond words, I don't know where to look upon;

It's because of you few that I'm still holding my ground.

Courage and strength is what I need the most now,

Will you please be there for me, support me in this now?

I feel lonely and happiness doesn't seem to touch me,

It's the sorrowful breeze that hits me,

I should come out of this neat and clean,

Settle with myself and my doings is what I need.