Rain

This feels good. It feels like rain pattering down. I can smell it, I can feel the drops on my face.
This is what I've been longing for all these days. It has a great sense of amusement to it. A sense of freedom, a freedom to jump, to fly, to dance, to get lost in this flow. It'll take me places now, I know for sure. And, this feeling will stay with me, I can make it stay with me, I now have that power, nothing can take it away from me. I'm blessed. I feel rejoiced.

No force, no boundaries, nothing set to accomplish. A rough path outlined, and nothing else defined. I like it this way. I like life! But I still debate in my mind, the purpose of my existence. Indefinite, surreal, no answer. I debate over it again and again and will do so till I see some answer.

But right now the feeling is great to carry in me, within, things feel settled, resolved and smooth. No choking, no suffocation. Fresh and pleasant breeze around me, hits my face, my body. This rain has resolved so many things. I wish it continues and lasts for long. Out of the blue some things should happen, such things dawn many realizations.

I like this a lot, the smell, the breeze, the wind, the sound, the sight.... all my senses activated. I feel good now!

A feeling of resolution has dawned upon me after a long time. I now feel that the pieces are going back to where they belong and soon the puzzle will be complete. That completeness, that satisfaction, finally, after days together.
I had lost myself and everything seemed to fall apart. The puzzle was so jumbled that putting back the pieces seemed a difficult task. It's now happening, things are slowly falling back in place. It'll take time I know but at least I see the first sign now.
I'm feeling normal now, unlike that unknow self that was in play for the past few days. I'm back is all I can say and this feeling is darn good.

Are you all like this?
I wonder to myself.
This creepiness,
this abhorrence,
is it a part of you all?

Disgusted is not
the best word to describe my feeling
for such a repugnant act,
I detest it to the core,
I wish I could show you how.

It leaves me speechless,
not knowing what my next
best step would or
rather should be,
but I hate you and
that is for sure!

Now you deal with it,
it is none of my concern,
nor my problem anymore.
Lets see you cope with it,
I challenge you to this!